Thursday, August 10, 2006>
i wanted to watch the lakehouse with you. you didnt want to. nevermind. i wanted to care, you shoved me away. it was just full of misunderstandings.
i guess its the last thing i'll pass to you. you looked stunning today. your hair, your eyes, you captured me. memories came flooding back. i dont even know if you'd even come to my blog again. if you're reading this, oh well - the day we first met,i thought everything would turn out right, everything was just perfect. you just had to leave, didnt you. everytime you say hi, my heart just screams out i love you. you're the only one i really loved of all my relationships. its either i have you back again, or i dont give love a second chance. i will still wait, i will still care, i'll still dream and think of you. i love- i try, i get hurt, i cry, i try again and again. that day on the phone. i never cried so much in my life before. you even had to sing, but thanks.i swear. you meant the world to me that i couldnt stop the tears.i never felt so much for anything before. it was so hard to breathe. i just felt i could end my life that moment.and now i've get sore eyes and a really bad flu. i spent alot of time on that box of stuff. but it dosen't matter. i just hope it brought back memories, and i wish you'd reflect. i know you wont, but i hope you really really Do.will today be the last day i saw you? i hope not.
I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER.Who listened all those times, when you were feeling low?
Who sat beside you in rough times and helped you where to go?
Who tried to stay next to you, and help you with your fears?
Did you forget, That I gave you my heart?
After you left, My whole world came apart.
Did you forget, all those nights we had?
And all those times you said you loved me, now it makes me sad.
Did you forget, when you called I was there?I always helped, when you were in dispair
Well I remember all those times I made sure you were ok.
Cause if I get to see you smile once, it will be a better day.
You are now gone, but the memories still last.
It is hard to put the ones away with love, thats in the past.
I will still be there.It will still be like before, I will always care.
And remember it wise, or you will regret.
Because I will always be there for you, or did you forget?
love is in the giver. not the gift.
i really appreciate those who were there for me when i was in shit.thanks to those who called, who msged, who asked. i was touched. i know you guys wana help, but its just between me and her. i guess she's had enough. but, thanks guys. i didnt know i had friends that cared so much. kevin, yazid, fats. you guys rock. always. thanks buddy alvin too. and amanda, i owe you alot. thanks so much. nicole too, maple and lee han. shiyan, liyan, and priscilla. thanks. cousins diane and dawn. even my sister.(im surprised) thanks guys. without you guys i wouldnt be here anymore. i guess life still goes on. you guys take care too. life sucks, pray hard.
sucide notes and butterfly kisses-
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